Tuesday, September 24, 2013
On Shame and Sexlessness
I've come back to the place I was in a few years ago, before I "got past" the sexless void in our marriage. I'm back in the place where I actively try to avoid sexual situations. I muddle through conversations when they involve sex or discussing whether we have a problem in this area again. I don't initiate. I don't encourage when he's amorous. I hide my body as much as possible. I don't even look at myself naked. If I let myself do these things it would mean I would have to face a lot of things that are overwhelming and painful.